reinvention, yo :) !

so i've been thinking .. i'm tired of sarka . sarka has become me . it's no longer an alter ego ... i have tara lynn -- thee hippie child ; sarka xiomara - thee kick ass bitch ; and i need another ego to cover my feminine girly side ... any suggestions .
i came up with -- Alexiane Xexilia originally Alexiane Xavière but i couldn't re-find thee meaning or pronunciation of Xavière .

Alexiane means defender in greek and french [Ah Lex EE Ann]
Xexilia means blind of self beauty [ze zil ee ah]

PEIRCINGSS . !

okay i'm at school in study skills &nd i'm completely stoked because ... guess whatttt !!! i finally got a second hole in my ear &ND a third one ! yeshhhhh . haha finally ! i'm 18 ....bhahah . alright . they look like this ! [look down hoee]

SO FAR I HAVE : LOBULE AUICULE
CONQUE AND CARTILAGE AND TRAGUS TMRW . wish me luckkk !!!!

new skinss .

in honour of my ex-boyfriend reno . it's all purpless :) ;
just how he likes it *(heehee)

i love you reno . i wonder if you'll ever see this <3
btww , i made thee headerr , owww :)

SUMMER --

can yuu please hurry thee fuck up ! - -
kthankss :)

this is where i'll be , [lookdownn]

more music . .

it's thee only thing that keeps me going nowadayss .
1 . Imma be - Black Eyed Peas (are back at it, i loveee this song !]
2 . Justin Beiber - One less lonely girl (goes hardd :)]
3 . Rihanna - Hard (so catchy & edgy]
4 . Rihanny - Rude Boy (i like thee choruss]
5 . Supa Dupa - Big Sean (imma supa dupa troopaa , `nuff said]
6 . Rock that body - Bep !
7 . Fresh Dressed (like a million buckks ]
8 . Bedrock
9 . Heartbreak don't break even
10 . Tik Tokk (wake up in thee morning feeling like p.diddy - it's me & mah girl's anthem]
11 . Hey Daddy - Usher
12 . Invented sex Remixx - Trey Songz , Keri Hilson , Usher (when yur soilder is at attention boy missionary's no good <- favourite partt :) ]
13 . Gimme datt Beckkyy
14 . Whatever you Want - Shakira & Lil Waynee (owww , get at `em]
15 . Bad Romance - Lady Gaga (lovee thiss video , she's fucking crazy]

More Favourite Music ....

this is all i seem to be able to post about ... musiccc :)


1 . New Boyz & Ray J - Tie Me Down (hot beat and truuenesss :) ]
2 . Shakira - She Wolf (video {first Part} is phenom !]
3 . Justin Bieber - One Time (he's like 12, but it's a cute song]
4 . Mariah Carey - Obsessed (video is really funny, and i like the beat ]
5 . Drake and Trey Songz - Successful (.. haha . yeahh]

most epic wish EVER ...

well , that is until 2011 ...

Tomorrow is November 11th ... which translates to 11,11
and at 11:11 am & 11:11 pm i shall make two of the most epic wishes of my life ....
yuu think this is awesome .. wait til 11,11,2011 @ 11:11 ....

fuck , yes !



btw , you should go read MLIA ; it will complete your life ...

faeries .

i twas a faerie . check me out :)






[E]very time a child says, "I don't believe in fairies,"
there is a fairy somewhere that falls down dead.
~James Matthew Barrie, Peter Pan

I want the money, money and the cars, cars ...I just wanna be, I just wanna be successful

alright . so my top five dream cars are now here :)

1 . mustang GT

2 . 2008 Corvette

3. Escalade

4 . Honda Accord (practical]

5. Yellow Camaro (Bumblebee]

Not in order , except mustang is definately number one :)

henna my henna, eh ?

so, i'm in Printing Graphics class for thee hours while the Sophomores and Juniors take the PSAT . so i'm gonna let ya'll in on a new fetishh of mine : Henna !

*correct : i wasn't in that class for three hours .. & it is now fourth period as i am posting this
i know you don't care , just thought'd i'd share :)










you get thee gist :)
background info

websites that engulft me - -

alright, so over the past few months i've had some shitty stuff
happen to me, all of it being my fault , but something that has
kept me "giddy" is being able to access these said websites and
read about other people's problems and such :)

* just to throw this out there ; my boyfrann makes me happiest ..
as if it needed to be saidd .


FML : fuck my life
this site is just a compilation of stupid and unfortunate shit that's
happened to people all over the world. i was at the library last
week and came across the book version, i proceded to check it out
and take it to school with me when class gets less than breathtaking.
(all the time]. i was a hit in latin class because i had not only the teacher
but most of the students around me laughing til their insides hurt at the
stupid things that had happened to people. alot of people already know about
this site, i just wanted to give it its proper shout out on my blog ...
you should try it, it just might make your day a little bit better :)

My Life is Average
its like a branch off of FML, except its happy little hokey things that warm your
heart when you read them. i've just discovered this site because at my school
they have FML blocked, so we procede to reroute our dedication to MyLifeIsAverage.
presto* your day is a teensy bit better :)

PostSecret
The Blogspot
PosteSecret on Twitter
The Archive
The Community
The History
Spanish , French , Chinese , German

Summer 2OO9 music list -- .

1 . Keri Hilson , Neyo & Kanye - Knock You Down (this video inspired my first day of school outfit :) ]
2 . BEP - I Gotta Feeling (i get soo crazy & buckwild to this song , it's not even funny .]
3 . BEP - Boom Boom Pow (hot beat , duh]
4 . New Boyz - You're a Jerk ( i can't jerk to save my life but i loveee this song]
5 . Cold Flamez - Miss Me Kiss Me Lick Me (another jerking song that's hot as hell]
6 . Jay-z & Rihanna - Run This Town ( i love Rihanna's Raw vocals in this song]
7 . Jay Sean & Wayne - Down ( this is a good song to sing to , Jay has an angelic voice]
8 . Beyonce & KANYE - Ego (i love his part in this song]
9 . Lady Gaga - Love Games ( even though i knew this song way before anyone else , i still love it . thee video is hot too]
1O. Mario - Breakup ( this song is sooo hot , i love thee beat]
11. Nicki Minaj - Beam Me Up Scotty (i don't know what thee fuck they're saying , but thee shits hot]
12. Soulja Boy - Swag On (... i have my own little sign language for this song :) ]
13. Taylor Swift - You Belong to Me ( I LOVEE this video *she looks horrible with brown hair , and thee vocals are good for singing]
14. Anything from TROOP 41 (google them]
15. Rebirth of Slick (Cool like that] - old but hella good beat & great rhymes
16. Dorrough - Ice Cream Paint Job (all i have to say is : Yeah buddy , rolling like a big shot]
17. Drake - Best I Ever Had (i've loved him since Degrassi ]
18. Katy Perry - Waking Up In Vegas (love thee vocals & thee vid]
19. Kid Cudi , Kanye & ? - Poke Her Face {Make her say} - I love thee Remix of thee fabulous Gaga song
2O. Wale & Lady Gaga - Chillen (great vocals Gaga]
*21. Kid Cudi - Day & Night :)

Smile --

Okay so this post was generated when I was sitting in Spanish class thinking about why are there so many freaking ways to emote a smiley ? like seriously . here’s a few ;;


:-)
:)
:]
O___o
o___.
.__.
~____~

(:
[:

^_____^

:D
:P
:}


:j
:J
* Curtesy of Javier Marquez ..


Like seriously .. I bet there are way more ..

I’ve changedd (this is old] --

How you ask? I’ve grown up, matured a bit . I can’t say that I’ve changed for thee better (well now I can] . but I have stopped my old ways & my outlook on life has changed a lot. My tastes in almost everything has changed also . part of it was just due but half of it is because of my wonderful boyfriend Reno.


New likes
· Tomatoes
· Pepper
· Eggs
· Most recently (again this is old as hell] – forward facing “f”s
· Country homes
· Yellow
· Short hair styles
· The love of series of books , not just one
· Movies from the 8O’s
· Hippie `ishh .
· West Coast Rap & Baltimore Club Music
· Slow and Indie Artists as opposed to In-Thee-Now Artists

New Dislikes
· My current weight (not telling, don’t ask] _ -- I have also stopped taking my Concert (35mg] for my ADHD , therefore I have gained booku weight & am no longer happie with my stomach (Reno likes it though] .. my ass & tits continue to grow … bah !!
· Spanish Class (old] , English Class (old], and just school in general(still standinggg] .. I’m sick of it all !


-- I also know how to take a hit , I’ve toughened up a lot (actually I lied, just a bit :) ]
-- I no longer feel thee need to facebook or otherwise stalk the guy I like, I am still nosy but not in a bad obsessive way (doesn’t apply cuz I have a boyfrann & I be on his page like all thee time – jk ]
-- I feel like thee people I’ve met, interacted with & learned to love have helped that change along thee way
-- friendships kept, made, reignited, etc. have been a theme of this year :)



* updated parts are in (here]

tired ...

i'm tired of looking at that same damn thing everytime i come to my own freaking site . so imma post this ... you know why ? bc i'm too busy to post anything else with more content . thank you have a nice dayy .


- fin .

baby names --*

alright . so here are thee girl names that i want to choose from :

marisella rose - marisella is a name i made up in a creative writing class & fell in love with
michi - my mother's middle name is michelle and she wants to be included
lisla marie - in the story that i wrote about marisella ; lisla was her twin sister
adelle or adelaide - i love this name so much !
ella michelle <--- eww , what was i thinking ... good lord :/
aeron skye
hayleigh cecile
diamond leigh - haha . sounds like a pornstar name :/

new .. PHEONIX - i'm hooked on this name . it could be for a boy or a girl .
pheonix rose
pheonix adryan

boy names :
donovan adrian - i love this guy named donovan whitaker :)
hooper - as a middle name or something bC everytime i see Hooper Schultz he makes me smile soooo freakin big
nikolaus - as a middle name .. hmm . self-evident to those who know me .
Míchaël - pronounced Mee-ki-ell ; it's thee hebrew/islamic version of michael

bus heirarchy --*

alright . so my bus driver is insane & really mean & extremely irrational . we've had many incidents with her (which is a whole nother blog in itself]. so we were raising hell to annoy her one morning and all us just happened to be black . we were in thee back of thee bus. so alex brings up about how blacks fought to get equal bus treatment and we continue to sit in thee back and consider that the "cool place". but thee funny thing is ; for my bus and my stop it wasn't always like that. in middle school the cool kids used to sit in thee front of thee bus but when we had a crazy bus driver she gave us assigned seats . so me and this girl named antoinette and these two boys named michael and darius were moved to thee back ; (we were thee cool kids]. so that's how my bus picked up the thing of "cool kids in the back" idk. i was thinking about how odd it is that you have a bus heirarchy. bC that kid alex just moved there and to be honest he's thee king of thee bus. i guess it's whosever loudest and funniest gets that position. i just so happen to be thee queen of thee bus ; haha . but anyways . just somethinq that came to my attention . thee old queen was hawaii . she used to sing really loud at thee top of her lungs all morning ; that's how she got that position.

Random Things -- i guess . - - *

1. i'm starting a petting zoo in my house, wanna visit ? 5 cats, a dog , & a guinea pig (had to give this little sucker away :[ , he started an intense alergic reaction for my mommy :/ ).
2. i have a younger sister i dont live with bC ...
3. i'm adopted by my cousin on my mum's side of thee family
4. in fifth grade this girl named Breanna McGahee started calling me Oreo & it stuck
5. i have so many networking sites under my name that i lose thee passwords and make new ones hence, i have like 5 blogger websites (livemahlife.blogspot.com]; same with emails
6. i want many tattoos & peircings when i become legal :)
7. i tan really easily (even though i don't want to ] & my tan lines stay for up to a year , i've also been severly sunburned and peeled . ( this is rare for an African-American girl , if you were wondering why this is randomm ]
8. i rarely sweat, only when i dance or am walking a long distance in 98degree+ weather
9. i adore cheetah print anything & everything
10. i like making up nicknames / aliases for myself
11. i shop at thee goodwill quite frequently
12. i don't own a pair of jeans that are more than $25 , & no i'm not poor . i'm frugal
13. i don't even use ice in my drink bC i get really bad brain freezes but i love ICEES , milkshakes, ice cream & frappacinos
14. i love to design myspace pages & i'm pretty darn good , if you ask me :)
15. i've never smoked weed in my life ; yes , seriously .... (about that)
16. i can run in 3 inch heels
17. when i dyed my hair last year it turned orange & alot of my hair fell out ; but i was lucky that i had alot of hair bC you couldn't even tell
18. i wish i was still a soprano like i was before my voice changed like freshman year
19. my favourite holiday is Christmas because you get to sing Christmas Carols , lame i know
20. i become infatuated with thee most random things at a time : ex. hello kitty , monkeys, various people , etc.
21. i'm very obsessive about checking my facebook messages & picking up the phone when it rings (i can't not pick it up or at least look , but i will/can reject you]
22. i am a self diagnosed pathological liar
23. i did this thing because my mum & cece did . i kinda want niko to read it & do it too :)
24. i almost got shut down by facebook because of a scandy picture ; but they didn't ;)
25. err ; one of thee best days of my life i accumulated the whopping total of seven bruises

becasue i'm greedy --> i wish i were tall enough to be a model because i'm pretty damn good at it . i think .

*NEW - 2.15.O9

i always put on music when i vacuum .

i will keep adding to this :) * & changing thingss